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I'm Cyrano, and this is my journal! I tend to ramble a lot at length, but here are some things you'll probably see here.

Chatter about my general life and job.
Ramblings about whatever media I happen to be into at the moment.
Posting art...talking about art...

I am an artist and I do draw quite often, most of which can be found on my personal mastodon which you can ask for!

Please be warned that a lot of my art is suggestive in nature, and some of the tropes I enjoy may be upsetting to others. Please keep any content warnings in mind when viewing my content!

This of course applies to this journal as well, as I am an adult-- and enjoy things designated for adults.

I'm pretty lax with granting access and subscribing, but don't feel obligated to follow back! I just like reading up on what people are up to!

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Fandoms / Things I Enjoy (bold are current fixations)

TMBG - Better Call Saul - Slenderverse - MLP (all gens) - Romance Lit - Final Fantasy - RPF

Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Palatine - Baton Rouge

howdy hi hello yes yes

today i am rolling around in my bed and not feeling tired at all despite it already being midnight apparently...i just so happened to finally take a peek at my laptop clock, i can't believe it's already midnight...anyway, what have i been up to lately... a lot of work! we'll be prepping for the holidays soon which mean a lot of shipping orders starting october / november and moving forward into the true holiday + xmas rush. i'm excited, but i'm also a little nervous too...

in more exciting news, around 2 weeks ago, i discovered a band called Grandmaster due to the instagram algorithm recommending me something i actually think is cool and they are...so very cool...I REALLY REALLY like them and their concept and the lore and etc etc etc...regardless, I have recently been given the honor of drawing a few things for them to put on their merch!! I am beyond flattered they even came and asked me after I posted a bunch of silly sketches of their mascot/main guy...waaugh...it almost doesn't feel real...give them a listen if you have the time mayhaps? Their instagram is here too if you want to look at that. They are a prog funk / jazz fusion / jazz rock group and I really do like them a lot. ehe. Their new album will be out sometime next year!

what else...oh yesss i made a new personal mastodon instance. I just prefer having the ability to choose who i can federate with instead of having it done for me...I don't like not being able to see or talk to some people on different instances. I do like that you always have the option to go and just make your own instance to really free yourself up.

I think that's about it for now! I'll try to link to the stuff I made for GM once it's complete and up and all that. Yay!

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Kate Bush • Babooshka

another day another dollar. i’m glad i requested my days off be mondays and tuesdays. the start of the week is always the slowest.
today i am thinking about my proclivities towards Doomed Yaoi. I wonder why I have always liked one-sided, bad ends, in my fictional men kissing world. i’ve been like this even since i was a kid, roleplaying dramatic tragic yaoi or reading unrequited love gone bad fanfics…even now with my Death Stranding work I see myself falling right back into it. something about it just scratches an itch really good i guess. i like a lot of things about psychological horror/terror, so i do think that’s part of it.

for example, i was thinking idly about a ship— Dollman/Heartman— and what started as me just mindlessly playing barbies for the sake of pairing two characters together who deal with communication/information regarding the dead and beaches, turned into an extremely convoluted character exploration about Dollman initiating (or trying to initiate) an inappropriate doctor/patient relationship with Heartman. This of course would go nowhere, Heartman is too focused on his own task of finding his deceased wife and child to pay him much mind beyond their professional interactions as therapist and patient. This would then lead to Dollman using information he gathered and adjusting his own behavior to get Heartman more emotionally invested in him, causing an uncomfortable back and forth of getting too close and trying to keep boundaries up while still trying to trust that your doctor would hopefully have your best interest in mind.

Dollman is shown to be a very emotional and caring man, and this alone would make him a bad therapist. Which it does, as we see in his interactions with Sam. It drives me crazy okay. I want Dollman to commit malpractice and let me watch.

Current Mood: thoughtful

goshhh it feels like it's been forever...probably because it has been! i've been really busy with work...and generally pretty tired with everything else going on...so i don't get a ton done these days. i'm hoping as the weather cools i'll feel better and feel like doing more stuff, but with how hot it's been lately, who knows when the cool weather will actually be finally making its way to my neck of the woods...

yesterday was yaoi day! i wish i'd drawn something for it, but i suppose it's never too late to celebrate. i've been really enjoying death stranding lately so maybe some sam/dollman or deadman/sam is in order...who can say what the future holds. i do however want to get back to writing more often, but i knew i had to break the non-posting curse before i did so, so here i am! it feels difficult to get back to it when it's been a little while, but i want to really get back on the ball! the blogging ball.

to derail and talk a little more about death stranding. it totally blows when something is only released on a singular console! i remember the days when everything came out on like 5 home consoles at once and then ALSO on PC!!!! Now I'll probably hafta wait a year until I can actually play Death Stranding 2. Which is FINE...but waaaauuugh I wanna play now! oh well...until then I will just draw crazy stuff happening to all the cute boys in it.

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: The Drifters - Ii Yu Dana

another few weeks gone by, time for an update i suppose!
new job has been relatively good! very physically demanding, but i enjoy doing it.
my coworkers are really friendly, and a few of them will be volunteering with me at a con down here so i’m super excited about that.

finally getting my health more or less lined up. after scrambling back and forth for some time, i finally got my birth control prescription back. My insurance originally was being super weird about it, so I’m really grateful to have it back. The patch was always the only thing that successfully regulated my cycle, so I’m just relieved. I know readjusting to it after not being on it for a long time is gonna suck, but I’m just glad I won’t have to argue over why it isn’t covered anymore.

looking forward to the rest of the year, june has two concerts i plan on going to! I’m super excited for both, Sleigh Bells on the 1st, and GY!BE on the 21st! I think I have to work on both days, but going to work and then a concert won’t be too bad. I’m just glad I get to go at all!! I’ll have to make sure I bring cash.

Current Mood: sleepy

april! i meant to make a post on my birthday (04/08) but i'd been so busy that i'd forgotten. oopsie!
anyway, things have been a bit hectic over here...a big issue happened at my current job and i and some others on my team ended up laid off at the beginning of april..i start my new job tomorrow though haha!!!

my birthday went well, i mostly slept...which was a dream bday for me. i always just want to rest for my bday and do nothing else and im really glad i got the chance to just relax.

lately ive been focusing more on flans...and looking into the specifics surrounding oshikatsu and how all of that works...i want to make a flans themed uchiwa..flans themed pen light....uwaah...cute...i love him so so so much it hurts sometimes. i'm working on making a dedicated area of my room for him, and im excited to finish it up!

also today is Glean's birthday! Happy 10th Birthday Glean!

ehe...i also take the time to post and archive pictures i like of him on my photoblog: handinsidepuppethead, i really cant wait to take some of my own later this year!! i'm so super excited...hopefully he'll also get back to doing live vibe reports sometime! i really miss seeing him fumble around on tiktok, it's cute.

currently, i'm waiting on a new craft book that shows you how to make felt dolls in the style of aranzi aronzo! I'm super excited to make a flans kitty and a linnell bunny! that's all for now! /wave

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: youtube video

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